Not Perfect

Dear Friends and Family,

I regretfully must inform you that, well...I, uh...am, not perfect. I know. I can hear your questions already, "What is she talking about? We already know she's far from perfect! We know her!"

Well...thanks for that, but really. I guess I just needed to say it for myself. You see, I know that I write good stories about how God saves and rescues us, which is all good and true, but until we get to that point, there is usually a very strong emotional struggle. Unfortunately, that is the part most people see, at least with me. And then they see me good again, but they are quick to judge and judge harshly. I suppose, that is only human and I should just let that go, but sometimes, it's hard when I'm trying to see through the fog of enemies plan.

So, what am I saying now? I guess that I'm not perfect and I know it, but I am forgiven by the One who counts. I do always try and live by the Golden rule and treat others as I would like to be treated. Even if they "don't deserve it." Who am I to say? God may be giving me a test? Am I going to pass it? Sometimes I fail miserably and end up feeling so sorry for myself, crying, "Why doesn't anybody like me?" The real question is: Does it matter? God loves me and that should be enough. But, sometimes it isn't and I need to get back to the truth.

We are in a spiritual battle and our battle must not be fought in the flesh, against people, where I get my feelings hurt. That is the truth and that takes the sting away! Thank God for the answers! So, no, I'm not perfect and I struggle with everyday issues but it makes for great writing material! I love you guys!